NEW REALITY

Hi.

I know, it's been a minute since I've been here, today isn't actually an official gist day but I'm here because I have a couple of things to get off my chest and I decided to share them here.

Welcome, grab your tissue before we get started. 

5:30am, the 15th of March, 2025, my worst nightmare became my reality: I lost my dad💔. You know when people are asked what their greatest fear is and everyone is saying fear of heights, fear of water bodies and all those stuff, my worst fear for as long as I've lived had always been losing my father, waking up and knowing that my dad is not here on this earth anymore –that has been my worst fear, and now it's a reality that I have to deal with everyday of my life from the 15th of March, 2025 till the day Jesus calls me home too. 

Recently, my dad turned 70, if you're a long time gist partner, you can probably remember me counting down and then eventually writing to celebrate his 70th birthday, and here I am, two months later, talking about my dad's death and burial.

Waking up everyday for the last week has in itself been pure torture because there are those first few seconds of waking up where I forget that my dad isn't here with me anymore and when I remember, the pain is almost tripled; even the changes in my routine have each become a source of immense pain for me, especially when I remember that the reason I no longer do those things that I had been doing is because daddy's gone💔, and then to now have this happen only a few days to my birthday….

In the midst of my terrible pain, I still am grateful to God, for the privilege to have had almost 26 years with my father, to have watched him live his life, to have seen him show me love for God above all things, even for the fact that God kept him until this time; I am so grateful! 

So now, my father's race is complete and he rests in the Lord, having received his laurel for his victory, na me still dey run my own and I know that even now he stands in the cloud of witnesses, cheering for me.

The pain in my heart is immense, I don't know when I'll be fine, but I trust God enough to know that I will be, but I'm covering your prayers for myself and my family, it's a really terrible time we're passing through and we sincerely need your prayers.

TUNES AND THOUGHTS: The song, “It is well with my soul” has been in my heart for much of the last week, it is a song of reassurance, that whatever happens, it is well! I hope the song blesses you too.

Thank you for reading my really jumbled rant, God bless you.

I honestly can't say how frequently or otherwise I'll be here, so see you when I see you.

Love,

Achenyo.