MY 26TH BIRTHDAY

Hi there!

It's my birthday today!

So really, from my heart of hearts, I'm here because I've never let a birthday to by without coming to gist with you guys and I didn't want that to change because my life is going a little bit of a lot of haywire at the moment. So welcome to today's gist.

First of all, I'd say today is a birthday I hope I never in my life have to experience again, having my birthday come so soon after losing my father meant that today was a day filled with a lot of crying, and not tears of joy oo! I remember seeing the clock strike 12 and thinking to myself that the day I had been dreading for 9 days has finally caught up with me; having to face this birthday without my dad has been a new and improved level of torture that I'll never wish on anyone. Throughout the day, I kept thinking of birthdays past and how my father used to do his best to make me feel special and not having that today really hit me different. 

Usually when my birthday is approaching, I'd have some serious conversations with God about how I believe the new year should shape out; but you see this year, the only thing I kept asking God has been for strength and for the eyes of my spirit to be open and to see Him more this year because if no be God, e for sad for me.