AS E DEY HOT

Halloooooooo!

It’s the last Thursday in September! How’d September go for you? It was quite a month for me but that gist is for another time but let’s just say that the summary of this month for me is ‘God is good!’

Welcome to today’s gist.

Recently God has been having me confront what is probably my worst fear on a daily basis; every morning I wake up and I’m struck anew with the possibility of this thing that I fear happening to me. I’ve been talking to God constantly about it but my prayers on the subject are quite ‘here and there’, today it’s “God help me to trust that You will take care of this matter, help me to let go and let Your will be done”, the very next day it’s “God about this matter, if You would only just give me a little more time before I have to face this thing, I’d be really grateful, I don’t know how I’ll cope if it happens so please just don’t allow it -at least not yet.”

And that is how my prayers have been oscillating for a while now, believe me when I tell you that I have recently become more acquainted with fear in really terrifying proportions. And what does God do?

He leads me on a journey of understanding.

Last week I was reading about the life of Corrie Ten Boom, a missionary from Holland. Interestingly, I didn’t read it by choice, I was just given and I may or may not have wanted to change and read about something or someone else.

Corrie had her first encounter with death at about 5 years old. She had followed her mother to visit a family that had just lost their baby. She briefly touched the baby and was astounded by how cold the baby was.

But that wasn’t what shook Corrie, it was the realization that one day everyone she knew and loved would one day die. That left her in a state of fear and anxiety. She wondered what she would do and how she would ever survive without her family.

Then she had an interesting conversation with her dad. After she told him her fears and her belief that she couldn’t survive losing her family, her father asked her at what point he usually gave her transport money when she had to go out and she said just before she leaves. The fact that he did not give her the money weeks before she was leaving did not mean there wasn’t money or that she wouldn’t be able to pay, she just didn’t have possession of it but when the need arose, the money was made available.

The lesson Corrie’s father was teaching is that God will always be there to provide for us and take care of us but there are dimensions of Him that we will not see until we need it. God will not go about giving us things we do not need just to prove that He can, but when we do need it, He will come through.

When I read that, I felt God telling me to learn to lean on Him and trust that He would take care of me. It may not look possible now for things to turn out in anyway but the one I think will bring certain calamity but I need to learn to trust that just before I get to the position where I need God to show Himself in some new dimension, He will do so because He will never stop taking care of me.

Today, I read Psalm 46:10 and 11 where God tells us to be still and know that He is God. As I read that, I realized that in my fretting and anxiety and constant need to make sure that everything turns out well, I most times forget to let God be God. So, I must learn to put all my fears at God’s feet and watch Him work in those situations. I must learn to be still and trust that He is God!

This is a lesson that I just started learning and I’m hoping that God will take you also on this journey and help you trust Him and lean on Him more.

I’m really sorry for my jumbled thoughts, I pray that God clarifies them to you and helps you trust Him.

Till the next time we see.

 

Love,

Achenyo.

 

PS. I may be taking a break next month so if you do not see me here, please know that I’ve taken the break and I’ll see you later. Have a blessed October!