I WANT THAT TOO!

The Bible says in 1 Timothy 6:6 "But godliness with contentment is great gain." I've read that in the Bible with my own eyes, have heard people make reference to it quite a lot, have even said it a couple of times myself but it has only recently begun to become more real with me.

So normally, I consider myself to be a very contented person, I mean -I no dey too do pass myself. But recently God has had me confront myself to see that I really am not the most content of persons. Sure, I won't go about randomly beefing people for having things that I don't, or trying to take what does not belong to me -God has already helped me overcome those ones. What I recently discovered was the manifestation of my discontent is the fact that I easily tire of things and want to get the better one, and I'm talking like this thing can happen anything from one week, if at all, to one month of having whatever it is; never mind that this thing I'm already so easily tired of is something I've been wanting for months, or even years. As I sit here typing this, I'm already tempted to begin to make the usual excuses "wanting something better is not a bad thing", "I shouldn't settle for mediocrity." None of these things are a lie actually but what I'm learning is the determining factor is the place from which I'm striving for something better; by the way, why am I getting tired of a gown after wearing it once, or of a phone two weeks after getting it? It doesn't even make sense! 

Something that God is helping me understand now is the fact that the reason He doesn't give me some things that I've prayed so fervently for, is the fact that I ask for those things from a place of discontent and not because I actually need those things; this has gone beyond even material things to things like grades, some form of recognition, or even money! Sometimes, most times actually, I'm asking God for things that I not only do not need, but also will misuse if He gives me. Funnily, I've taught this a few times yet it is only just hitting me that it is a problem I also have.

I am also beginning to understand that while I am striving to be better, get better things and achieve bigger heights, I must be careful to always ask myself the real reason I'm going for whatever it is I am going for; do I really need it? Or is it just to be able to have it? What good can come out of me having it, for me and/or others? What is really wrong with what I already have sef that I'm looking for a new one? I'm learning that in answering these questions and more, I have begun to filter through my desires and stick to only wanting what I really need. 

I am not going to lie to you that it is easy because it's not, especially because this is something I've been doing for, only God knows how long, and I only discovered a few weeks ago but I believe in God's ability, and my doggedness, to help me overcome this particular trait. I'll try, if I remember, to keep you posted on how I'm doing in this journey but in the event that I forget to do so, you can just ask me and I'll tell you. I sha think we all need to sit down and have a contentment assessment with ourselves so that we discover any such struggles we have and work on tackling them.

So, do you have any discontentment struggles? Or have you had them before? How does/did it manifest? What tips do you have for dealing with it? Please share, I'd love to learn. May we learn to be content with what we have and from that place, strive to be and have better.

Love,

Achenyo